one of my favorite bloggers, Breanna from Where She Begins says that part of adulting is doing things you don’t want to do, i’ll add to that, adulting is doing things you don’t want to do and adapting anyway. my contract position didn’t work out. The word frustration doesn’t describe how i feel, but here i am, attempting to adapt and be on my big girl.
well there was an attempt made today…
you ever walk into something and just know its not for you. that was today. i walked into this office and immediately felt off. i’m very much into energies and vibes so when i felt that energy, i knew it was not for me. but adulting and responsibilities that need money. the job isn’t at all what was in the job description and in all honesty, i felt so defeated. i don’t want to go on about this but i got to thinking, is it ever a good idea to push for something that’s so obviously not for you just to be temporarily comfortable? someone literally threw a ball at me on day 1. i’m an introvert — working in an environment where i don’t get to nurture relationships as well as zone out and handle my work on my own ain’t for ya girl. i would like to think my sanity should come second to none but does that argument hold up when responsibilities are very real?
i’m trying to figure out how to value myself but still need do what i need to do.
until next time, Nneoma
side note: if i make it through day 2 i honestly deserve some type of award
so basically something must be in the air because all musical faves are just delivering straight 🔥🔥🔥
so there i was minding my business watching IG stories when it happened. after a week or so of teasing imagery and snippets, Luke James decided to bless our ears and drop his single ‘Drip’.
I WAS SHOOKETH.
goosebumps immediately pop up on my arm as he sings the first line. i have been a fan since randomly watching his ‘I Want You’ video years ago and he was SANGING. anyway, y’all know that i got my entire life from his husky falsetto. it’s a groove that i honestly feel with every chord from that bass guitar in the background. by the time he gets into the chorus, its clear this is a whole vibe. that falsetto, the funk seeping through, his voice literally feels like it’s dripping as he plays with between a falsetto and his regular voice. his voice literally feels like it’s dripping throughout the track.
“feeling on your booty but i’d rather feel your soul” when i tell y’all i clutched my imaginary pearls and proceeded to get my life from that one line. honestly the song could have ended right there and ya girl would have been A ok with that. A1!
AND THE LYRIC VIDEO, i still think music videos are very vital and really are an art in its own right. you get to see what the artist envisioned for the song and it really does bring it to life that enriches the music even more.
if you can’t tell, this song has been on repeat for the past couple days because i needed to properly digest every melody, guitar riff, drum beat, every syllable he sang. i can’t wait for what’s next.
i turned 24 on July 18th. now i’m someone who never does anything for her birthday. my last birthday function was when i was 17 and it was a surprise party courtesy of my mom, sister and best friend. the point is, i’m that person who doesn’t make a big deal out of my birthday. this year, i decided to switch it up and actually celebrate. so being a passive fan of all things extra, i had the idea of a 70’s skate party. do i know how to skate? lol hell nope but as far as i was concerned, it’ll be super cute and fun.
we get there and it was honestly as cute as i envisioned it would be. the vibe was so beautiful. there so much unity. when i tell y’all that there were legit olympic skaters there. they were doing flips, break dancing and all types of acrobatics. it looked like the olympic skating meets roll bounce. they were just bopping and gliding to old school hits ( i was getting my entire life from the playlist) and in the midst of all that, i couldn’t help but notice how happy everyone in that room looked. no one has a care in the world, just being free and genuinely having so much fun. being able to be surrounded by my friends had me lowkey in all of my feelings. i’m just so grateful for them.
i have been thinking of what goals and affirmations i would like to have for this year. so here are some of them
i will have financial stability
i will get a space of my own
i am capable and able to achieve anything i put my mind to
i am grateful in advance for all the blessings that i will receive and the ones i have now
thank you so much to everyone that reads, subscribes or even quickly glances through. i appreciate it all.
until next time, Nneoma
shoutout to @antdray on IG for these beautiful pictures.
last week, i was fortunate enough to go to day 2 of Panorama in Randall Island Park and to be quite honest, i am still on that high a week later. many delays and some train rides later, my sister and i made it
just before Chet Faker (who was really good). we squeezed our way to the front (one of the few times being short pays off) and patiently waited for Tame Impala’s set.
and then they came on and just blew my mind.
it was around 9, the sun was setting and they began with Nangs. my goodness! when i tell y’all that i was immediately transformed into another dimension. it was so good, being that close to the stage and feeling the music with the rest of the crowd. they performed songs from Currents, Innerspeaker and Lonerism. y’all THEY SOUND SO GOOD LIVE. THEY SOUND JUST LIKE THE RECORDING. it was honestly such an experience from the first cord that was played to the very last.
honestly one of the best performances i have been privileged to see. i literally felt like i was being transported through dimensions. the visuals were on point, i could literally feel the sounds, the weather was perfect btw because each time i would close my eyes, a soft wind would blow and it was honestly such a moment that i was so happy to experience.
so glad i was finally able to see them live in concert, it was truly amazing!
it’s been a while. there have been so many changes since the last time we spoke.
i have an adult job so ya girl’s getting those checks.
i’m currently rebuilding this site. i really would like it to build up a little community. it’s still scary put yourself out there but here i am. there are times when i really want to write but if i don’t feel connected to what i’m writing then it’s immediately canceled so bare with me. i will try and be more consistent even if it’s just a quick write up of random things that i am dealing with, i will post.
quick shoutout to friends and loved ones that support when you think no one is looking. you’re so deeply appreciated.
until next time, Nneoma
(working on a signature that sounds authentically me)
As the premiere of season 7 of Game of Thrones nears (35 days fyi), i’m anxiously reminded that Winds of Winter has yet to be released and i have alot of feelings about it.
I frantically read all 5 books before season 6 was released and finally finished last November (shoutout to my valiant effort, i got to book 4 before season 6 premiered so that counts for something). i completely fell in love with the book series and was transformed from a casual fan to an obsessed fanatic (i may or may not be part of several forums). you’re completely engrossed in each character’s point of view and find yourself lost in their worlds. the writing is so rich. every detail is so vividly illustrated through GRRM’s words and it’s arguably one of the best series i have read. each time i would return to the real world, i immediately wanted to fight because so much of the books was completely different the show. THEY EVEN CHANGED HOW THE CHARACTERS LOOK! HOW THE CHARACTERS LOOK TELLS YOU WHO THEY ARE AND WHAT HOUSE THEY BELONG TO (book one was the most parallel to season 1). so many other characters, subplots, different locations, every detail matters in the world of Westeros and i’m very proud to say i became that person. you know, the person who screams ‘that never even happened in the book’ at the TV (the main reason why i refused to watch the Harry Potter movies after i read all the books).
so the new season is coming and since George RR Martin has yet to bless us with Winds of Winter, ya girl is anxious because most of last season didn’t have a book to rely on and this season will be the same. A Dance with Dragons left off with Jon ‘bae’ Snow being stabbed by Bowen Marsh and some other black brothers after he let wildlings over to their side of the wall, shit is getting real in Dorne, Dany is going through it after being stranded in the middle of nowhere while Drogon is doing him, Arya is learning shit in Braavos, Sansa is on her grown and finally smart. Lady Stoneheart is outchea murking any and every one that has ever done her or Robb wrong and of course Cersei is plotting revenge after her lovely stroll through the city (man, the writing in the book during that scene was perfection, you almost feel bad for her), Tyrion along with Jorah Mormont and Penny are slaves and through Tyrion’s cunning, they are headed for Dany, Arianne and Doran Martell been plotting (unfortunately that plot goes left) Varys is clearing the way for Aegon the other Targaryen that magically doesn’t exist in the show! AEGON LIVES and is about to come all the way through! basically a lot is happening at the end of A Dance with Dragons and the show doesn’t cover it and i have no idea what this new season will bring because THERE IS NO WINDS OF WINTER!!!!!
ya girl is stressed and very much pressed and as much as i am so happy to have another season, i have no idea what to expect but trust and believe ya girl will be front and center on July 16th at 9pm EST, ready for David and Dan to ruin my life and thrust me into my feelings because i wouldn’t want it any other way.
a part of life and (as i am now learning) adulting is that there will be disappointments. a whole lot of them. apparently these things are inevitable and there is no ‘opt-out’ option (if there is, kindly direct yourself to my comments and share you secrets please and thank you). this past week and some change has brought about some unsavory disappointment my way. the kind that despite your better judgment, you let your guard down and when it finds its way to you, you can’t help but feel numb because deep down you knew it would come. i was up for a position that i really really really REALLY wanted and i felt really good about the interviews and the people i met with. it unfortunately didn’t work out and when i found out, i felt so numb. a part of me is so used to the rejection but this one i knew hurt a lot because of how blank i felt in the moments after.
so what now? was the question that floated in my head after the cloud of numbness slowly faded away. to quote the great Shonda Rhimes (just finished season 6 finale and I feel very inspired and also very much in some feelings), you quit being a bitch baby and keep it pushing.
i can’t control the outcome but i sure as hell can control my actions and make sure this period of disappointment doesn’t cause me to give up all together. now is it hard as hell, YES. ya girl took a nap right after but when i was all good, i continued applying even harder and reaching out to old contacts. if i learned anything from Olivia Pope or Cyrus, it is that there is always a plan and no matter how hard life may knock you down, you lick your wounds if need be then pick yourself right back up and continue to be a badass with bouncy hair and quick quips because yes.
i say all this to say, i will be fine in no time and this period of my life will be one that i look back on with pride because it is prepared me for the next chapter which is soon to come.
p.s. Shonda Rhimes continues to have me in all my feelings and I will be forever grateful of each heart palpitations that i have suffered through while watching her programs.