last week, i was fortunate enough to go to day 2 of Panorama in Randall Island Park and to be quite honest, i am still on that high a week later. many delays and some train rides later, my sister and i made it
just before Chet Faker (who was really good). we squeezed our way to the front (one of the few times being short pays off) and patiently waited for Tame Impala’s set.
and then they came on and just blew my mind.
it was around 9, the sun was setting and they began with Nangs. my goodness! when i tell y’all that i was immediately transformed into another dimension. it was so good, being that close to the stage and feeling the music with the rest of the crowd. they performed songs from Currents, Innerspeaker and Lonerism. y’all THEY SOUND SO GOOD LIVE. THEY SOUND JUST LIKE THE RECORDING. it was honestly such an experience from the first cord that was played to the very last.
honestly one of the best performances i have been privileged to see. i literally felt like i was being transported through dimensions. the visuals were on point, i could literally feel the sounds, the weather was perfect btw because each time i would close my eyes, a soft wind would blow and it was honestly such a moment that i was so happy to experience.
so glad i was finally able to see them live in concert, it was truly amazing!
it’s been a while. there have been so many changes since the last time we spoke.
i have an adult job so ya girl’s getting those checks.
i’m currently rebuilding this site. i really would like it to build up a little community. it’s still scary put yourself out there but here i am. there are times when i really want to write but if i don’t feel connected to what i’m writing then it’s immediately canceled so bare with me. i will try and be more consistent even if it’s just a quick write up of random things that i am dealing with, i will post.
quick shoutout to friends and loved ones that support when you think no one is looking. you’re so deeply appreciated.
until next time, Nneoma
(working on a signature that sounds authentically me)
As the premiere of season 7 of Game of Thrones nears (35 days fyi), i’m anxiously reminded that Winds of Winter has yet to be released and i have alot of feelings about it.
I frantically read all 5 books before season 6 was released and finally finished last November (shoutout to my valiant effort, i got to book 4 before season 6 premiered so that counts for something). i completely fell in love with the book series and was transformed from a casual fan to an obsessed fanatic (i may or may not be part of several forums). you’re completely engrossed in each character’s point of view and find yourself lost in their worlds. the writing is so rich. every detail is so vividly illustrated through GRRM’s words and it’s arguably one of the best series i have read. each time i would return to the real world, i immediately wanted to fight because so much of the books was completely different the show. THEY EVEN CHANGED HOW THE CHARACTERS LOOK! HOW THE CHARACTERS LOOK TELLS YOU WHO THEY ARE AND WHAT HOUSE THEY BELONG TO (book one was the most parallel to season 1). so many other characters, subplots, different locations, every detail matters in the world of Westeros and i’m very proud to say i became that person. you know, the person who screams ‘that never even happened in the book’ at the TV (the main reason why i refused to watch the Harry Potter movies after i read all the books).
so the new season is coming and since George RR Martin has yet to bless us with Winds of Winter, ya girl is anxious because most of last season didn’t have a book to rely on and this season will be the same. A Dance with Dragons left off with Jon ‘bae’ Snow being stabbed by Bowen Marsh and some other black brothers after he let wildlings over to their side of the wall, shit is getting real in Dorne, Dany is going through it after being stranded in the middle of nowhere while Drogon is doing him, Arya is learning shit in Braavos, Sansa is on her grown and finally smart. Lady Stoneheart is outchea murking any and every one that has ever done her or Robb wrong and of course Cersei is plotting revenge after her lovely stroll through the city (man, the writing in the book during that scene was perfection, you almost feel bad for her), Tyrion along with Jorah Mormont and Penny are slaves and through Tyrion’s cunning, they are headed for Dany, Arianne and Doran Martell been plotting (unfortunately that plot goes left) Varys is clearing the way for Aegon the other Targaryen that magically doesn’t exist in the show! AEGON LIVES and is about to come all the way through! basically a lot is happening at the end of A Dance with Dragons and the show doesn’t cover it and i have no idea what this new season will bring because THERE IS NO WINDS OF WINTER!!!!!
ya girl is stressed and very much pressed and as much as i am so happy to have another season, i have no idea what to expect but trust and believe ya girl will be front and center on July 16th at 9pm EST, ready for David and Dan to ruin my life and thrust me into my feelings because i wouldn’t want it any other way.
a part of life and (as i am now learning) adulting is that there will be disappointments. a whole lot of them. apparently these things are inevitable and there is no ‘opt-out’ option (if there is, kindly direct yourself to my comments and share you secrets please and thank you). this past week and some change has brought about some unsavory disappointment my way. the kind that despite your better judgment, you let your guard down and when it finds its way to you, you can’t help but feel numb because deep down you knew it would come. i was up for a position that i really really really REALLY wanted and i felt really good about the interviews and the people i met with. it unfortunately didn’t work out and when i found out, i felt so numb. a part of me is so used to the rejection but this one i knew hurt a lot because of how blank i felt in the moments after.
so what now? was the question that floated in my head after the cloud of numbness slowly faded away. to quote the great Shonda Rhimes (just finished season 6 finale and I feel very inspired and also very much in some feelings), you quit being a bitch baby and keep it pushing.
i can’t control the outcome but i sure as hell can control my actions and make sure this period of disappointment doesn’t cause me to give up all together. now is it hard as hell, YES. ya girl took a nap right after but when i was all good, i continued applying even harder and reaching out to old contacts. if i learned anything from Olivia Pope or Cyrus, it is that there is always a plan and no matter how hard life may knock you down, you lick your wounds if need be then pick yourself right back up and continue to be a badass with bouncy hair and quick quips because yes.
i say all this to say, i will be fine in no time and this period of my life will be one that i look back on with pride because it is prepared me for the next chapter which is soon to come.
p.s. Shonda Rhimes continues to have me in all my feelings and I will be forever grateful of each heart palpitations that i have suffered through while watching her programs.
so i was really trying to stay consistent with my posting every Monday but the Met Gala happened last week and that was promptly canceled and yesterday i spent being anxious (y’all there are somethings in the works and i’m so excited)
but alas, ya girl is here for another music minute (i was working on another post that just didn’t feel right). so summer is basically here and my shifting playlist reflects that. so today’s music minute has 3 songs that have constantly been on repeat and i can’t get enough of it. I don’ t know about y’all but one of my favorite things about music is being able to pick up on something new each time I listen and that is definitely the case with these songs.
First up is How I Feel by Moods. This is a whole vibe and i love how very 2002-ish it sounds. I love songs that take my back to a time and this song reminds me of the days i would sneak to watch BET (you know when they played music videos and you never knew what you would see and my parents just loved to pop up each time i even thought of watching BET) and they had the music videos where the guy would chase his love interest through a semi crowded street with his group of friends who could all sing and dance while professing his love to her even though he just met her. It’s the perfect song to drive around with someone special or just vibe out by yourself.
Second is Run Away by L.A.X. is an Afrobeats song and as far as i’m concerned, its not summer without a good Afrobeats song. You can’t help but bust out that ugly dancing face as the beat starts to hit. The beat is just hypnotic and a mandatory wine is very called for. L.A.X.’s voice is very commanding as he’s asking for his interest to love him. Been pressing repeat ever since i stumbled across this one. this song is a whole bop.
Last but not least is I Want You by The Avila Brothers. you ever hear a song so good you cry, this is it (although to be fair, good music is one of the few things i’ll actually cry over) anyway, I CANNOT GET ENOUGH OF THIS SONG! ya girl loves a good sample and this song combines Marvin Gaye’s I Want You and Debarge’s Stay With Me. the second i heard the first line i knew i would love this song immediately. the production, the chilled out melody along with the smoothness of the vocals and the steady bass in the background. It’s so seductive and enticing and it makes you feel every part of the song and the vocals. my goodness, YALL THIS IS A WHOLE VIBE. GET INTO IT AND BE BLESSED.
so ya girl is constantly obsessing over music so i felt it right that my little space on here reflect some of my current favorites.
so around last July-ish, i discovered Nonchalant Savant’s Mixed Signals and i am soooo in love with everything about this song. first off, issa vibe. second, i feel like this song exudes the effortless cool i can only hope to be. and the video, is just awesome and makes me want to be posted somewhere with the homies listening to music and looking like we don’t have responsiblities.
anyway the song was officially released on all music platforms a couple days ago (you know i love a song if actually waited for the finished version). listen and receive life in abundance.
i know it’s been a long ass time while. to be completely honest, I have been going through a bit of a funk that refuses to let up. i also doubt my writing a lot. i have been trying to be more vulnerable and open about my current struggles in adulting so here we go…
it’s been a lot.
i’m coming up on 2 years post graduation and i’m no where near where i envisioned myself. i remember senior year and being so ready to graduate and the fancy job and security i imagined for myself. mind you i had a very vague idea of what i wanted to do but nonetheless the plan was to hit the ground running and don’t stop until i reach all these goals. reality didn’t agree and to be honest looking back, i am grateful about that (some of it). i honestly can say that i had no idea what career i would like until a year ago. so while the freelancing is very annoying especially for someone like me who needs to have some sort of security ALWAYS, i am grateful about my experiences so far. am i beyond frustrated with not knowing what comes next? the answer is a quick yes.
the hardest part about not being where you envisioned for yourself is when family members start to ask questions. while it is always well-intentioned, nobody can make you feel shittier (especially when you’re already down) about a very shitty situation like family. there’s the questioning, the reoccurring ‘suggestion’ that maybe you’re doing something wrong and my personal favorite, the shady comments. everyday i struggle with remaining positive (you can only be so positive when you get rejection letters from a job posting you filled out months ago) and putting out good energy and its all so exhausting.
anyway this past weekend, I went away to the Poconos for one of my really good friend’s birthday. a lot of chilling, laughter and much needed space from everything. although my allergies made a quick appearance towards the end of the trip, I desperately needed the change in scenery. i left the weekend feeling energized and slightly optimistic about all the changes, good and not so good, that comes my way.